Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Venting

"George is getting upset"!  So now I will vent (Eric is working).  I'm sure it's not a big deal, but what if it is?  Avery's meds, though not life sustaining, interact with one another and everywhere I've read, including reading given to me by the hospital when discharging, say to get regular blood tests to make sure it's all okay.  Fine, good, let's do it.  Now, different philisophy, ect. and it's not necessary to test so often (it's only every 3 months).  I could strangle this one person's neck, she is so condescending and self righteous I could puke all over her if she gave anyone the time of day.  (ok, that was a bit much) 

The point is, I can be in control of her situation only so much.  Her drugs have occasionally been altered due to results from the periodic blood testing, so it appears to be useful.  I think the reason has nothing to do with it not being necessary medically.  What do you do?

This venting is likely one of many coming up this winter and spring.  Avery has started getting things going for her last (crossing my fingers) surgery (sometime this spring).  I can promise you this.  I will be venting again.  I will try to be hopeful and positive.  It just is hard when you can't control everything and you have to rely on so many.  I feel fragile, yet braced for impact.  Help me smile!  It'll be okay.  I can do it, and so can you.

11 comments:

Jocelyn Christensen said...

You can do it, Renae..."You're a Mother, Aintya?"

Jan said...

I'm so sorry you have to deal with this frustration -- especially involving Avery. All you want for your kids is the best possible and it's hard to have that in the hands of someone else. Sigh.

Hang in there -- love you!

Cynthia said...

venting is cathargic.
I am sorry that lady was so condesending; she should know that you are avery's mom and know best and have to live with what ever choice you make so she should just be quiet!! (if she goes on a rant again, just turn your bad ear toward her and smile and nod...think happy thoughts:)

SweetmamaK said...

You can vent all you need. You know what's needed so be the mama bear and if someone is condescending calmly talk to the supervisor expalin how rude she was and get blood tests approved. Nobody messes with your cubs!!!!
I'm pleased to hear that hopefully Avery will have her last surgery. I sure wish I was there to visit with you in the hospital or play with your cute little zach and teach him some more spanglish

Melissa said...

I know my "Mama Bear" comes out when I have to protect my kids and I think that is natures way of helping us help our kids! Avery is lucky to have a mom who will worry and fight for what is best for her!

I saw your parents and Gary and Emilee in CO when we were there after Christmas- always good to see some of the Christensen clan!

Aryn said...

First, vent away. You need it, and I like to know what's going on with you. Second, I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this. I can only imagine how frustrated you would be. Is this "she" a doctor? Can you switch doctors? Too much? I'm sure you've considered everything you can... so I'll stop offering useless advice. Ditto to everyone else - Avery is lucky to have you! Hang in there, I (we) love you sooooo much!

the 2nd tallest tree said...

Renae, Renae, Renae, I have nothing to offer except understanding. I hear ya. I've had my own venting sessions(and thank-you for your advice and comfort, BTW). You ARE an amazing woman and mom, and I have been uplifted and pushed myself a little harder just from knowing you and how "well" you have dealt with your own situation. I don't know if that makes you feel any better, but you are inspiring, just wanted you to know. ;o)

the 2nd tallest tree said...

Oh, and I believe one under extreme stress should be entitled to vent once in awhile. It doesn't make you any less of a heroine, just human. :)

Shelly and Ken said...

Oh, my goodness, SO frustrating! Nothing worse than feeling like your not being validated. Especially something that is so easy to do. Blood pressure tests are quick and painless. What is her beef about doing them? Hopefully you can find something to help you in your frustration.

Renae said...

I'm sure this unpleasant woman is just doing what she is supposed to, but one can do it in a better way. I'm going in today with questions and I know what I want. I'm not sure what cathargic means, but it sounds good. Thanks.

Cynthia said...

sorry i meant cathartic. (Cleansing, purging). I think I mixed the two words cathartic and lethargic and came up with my new word. oops!!